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KW_關於「命運」和「選擇」
文章 專欄版編/發表於 2015 01/08, 18:09  
     

    由於兩位讀者分別問及《奇蹟課程》對「選擇」、「宿命或命運」的看法,我們特將他們的問題彙整成一篇:

    問:
      我對《課程》的理解是,在分裂之夢裡,我唯一真實的選擇乃是不論何種境遇選擇小我或者聖靈;而非夢境本身,《課程》說劇本早已寫定了。但我想知道,作為夢者的我,能否改變夢中尚未發生的事件?亦或我只能改變自己對此事此境的看法?也就是說,我這一生的所有境遇、關係……是否都已經註定,根本改變不了?換句話說,我只是好似在回顧一個過去的分裂之夢,在觀看一部老電影,我的婚姻註定多長就只能多長,我註定有幾個孩子,就只能有幾個,我現在的親密關係能持續多久,也不可改變了……。那麼,「我可以選擇以聖靈為師,從而『節省時間』」的意思就是,我最多只能跳過人生的某個情節,這樣說對嗎?

      可是,《課程》好像又不主張我們另覓「佳」人,用一個不神聖的關係,換取另一不神聖的關係,因為我們永遠不可能從自身之外尋獲幸福,只能把當前的關係轉為神聖關係。這似乎又暗示我們「可以」選擇人生大夢的劇情,想要遇到什麼樣的人等等。換句話說,我的這一世可能有多種版本,其中一個也許包含了兩段或者更多與不同伴侶的短暫婚姻,而另一個則是一段持續多年的婚姻。但耶穌又說沒有一事是偶然的,每一場會晤都是已安排好的。可不可以這樣說,形式其實無關緊要,因為我看到的都只是自己投射在那些角色身上的陰影?但既然我的人生劇本已經寫定,為什麼我的選擇還會對他人的生命帶來這麼大的影響?

      耶穌還說我們所見的一切純粹反映了我們對自己的判斷,外在那個世界根本就不存在。這是不是意味著,比方說美國和伊拉克開戰了,我可以做些什麼來中止它?還是說,這場戰爭已經發生且被修正了?那麼,我若看到戰爭而非和平,是否說明我的心靈仍然有待修正,因為我選錯了老師?或者說,根本阻止不了戰爭,只需選擇與哪位老師一起正視這一事件。只要我選擇了聖靈,便再也看不到戰爭,只會看到雙方的純潔無罪?

    答:
      你的問題需要一整本書來答覆,肯恩真的寫過一本書——《時間大幻劇:奇蹟課程的時間觀》(中譯本販售中),有助於你深入瞭解本文無法詳述的一些觀念。

      《課程》的確說過:我們唯一真實的選擇乃是選擇小我或聖靈,這裡的關鍵是「真實」。但在夢境裡,我們在形式層面的選項幾近無限,當然不可能真的無限,只是近乎無限,因為小我不可能造出無限或永恆之物 (T.4.I.11:7)。但不管有多少選項,內涵其實都一樣,不外乎罪、咎、懼,所以,《課程》才強調在本質相同的選項間不存在真正的選擇。唯有在內涵層次上,選擇才有意義,故而,我們唯一真實的選擇是介於小我的罪咎和恐懼與聖靈的愛和寬恕。所以,你說的沒錯,我們在人間做出的種種「虛擬」選擇的確會改變生活的具體狀況或情節,但只要我們還與小我沆瀣一氣,相信幸福可從身外尋得,縱然我們的處境或人際關係可能發生明顯變化,也不會有任何實質的改變。附帶一提,《課程》從未鼓勵我們勉強維繫某個關係,設法轉化為神聖關係,要知道,《課程》從不在具體或形式層次上給我們建議。當它警告我們小心自己想要「除掉你的弟兄」(T.17.V.7:2)的念頭時,是要我們留意自己看待弟兄的心態,尤其當弟兄不再能滿足我們對他的種種幻想需求時。

      正如你所言,課程說過:劇本已經寫定(W.pI.158.4:3),時間領域內的一切皆已發生,我們的人生無非「在旅途的終點回首整個旅程,假想自己再走一趟,在腦海裡重溫一遍陳年舊事而已。」(4:5)當耶穌說凡事沒有偶然,顯然是把人生經歷指向自心的選擇(T-21.II.3:1,2,3),但這並不意味著此生的每一細節都已註定,也不是說種種前因後果已經定死了。說到底,我們無時不在一大堆已經發生的事件中挑來揀去,但我們此刻為它們選擇的出場順序,以及它們龐大的可能性,再加上我們把這些記憶壓在心靈深處,又對線性時間的真實性深信不疑,讓我們感到眼前的事情是第一次發生。這都是小我誤導我們的伎倆,它想讓我們相信我們此生的經歷都是嶄新且充滿意義的,為我們心中那愚蠢的希望打氣:也許這一次我們與小我在世界所作的選擇會有更好的結局。

      若想瞭解我們對彼此生命的有形影響,我們需要退後一步,從世界之夢之外去審視,把注意力收回到真正作選擇的心靈那兒。時間領域裡的事件看似有無限的可能,其實在(集體)心靈在與小我結合的一瞬間就寫完了,其後才分裂為種種碎片,投射為一個充滿個別身體和生命的世界。正如耶穌所說:「時間在你心中其實僅僅存在了一個刹那,它對永恆毫無影響。過去所有的時間……在造出第一個錯誤以及由此孳生一切錯誤的那個刹那裡。」(T.26.3:3,4,5)。

      如今,我個人的夢境與他人的夢境分道揚鑣,互不相通。但由於所有的心靈原本是相通的,我與你的身體互動時所作的選擇,你與我的身體互動時所作的決定,其實反映了我們在超時空的心靈層次所達成的共識——在時空世界重演已經演過的情節。為了繼續維持小我分裂與受害的那個目的,這一共識或協定必須永遠壓在潛意識裡。

      耶穌把這決意接受彼此傷害的協定稱為「這是你與每個決心要與你分道揚鑣的弟兄之間所訂立的秘密誓約……暗藏在意識層面底下沒說出或沒聽到……它等於向對方保證,自己會受到傷害,但是自己也會報復的。……你存心要它(身體)承受你的痛苦。你的秘密協定所導致的這一後果是有目共睹的,與他人暗自想跟你分裂而你也正想與他分裂的願望正好不謀而合。除非你們兩人都同意自己甘願生病,它才影響得了你們」(T.28.VI.4:3,6,7; 5:1,2,3)。我們必然簽訂了一個秘密協定,表現得好似被彼此牽制,否則,我們就不會淪為對方決定下的受害者了。儘管從形上學講,我們確實對形相世界的種種簽了這一秘密協定,但若從實修上來講,我們應該把注意力放在自己所認同的這一肉體自我上,我左右不了他人的所作所為,但怎麼看待現實生活的事件,永遠操之於我。我可以決定邀請哪位老師,究竟是接受聖靈的教誨,認清心靈的平安只能來自我自己的選擇;還是聽從小我的教唆,認為他人有能力奪走我內心的平安,為小我的主張搖旗呐喊:我是無辜的受害者,我不該為我的情緒和感受負責。

      至於療癒的心靈是否看得見戰爭,自己的選擇能否影響到它?顯而易見的是,耶穌看得出我們小我的衝突(他在課程中花了很大的篇幅剖析小我的病態邏輯),但這並不表示他的心靈尚未療癒。重點在於他揭露小我的運作機制時,不帶任何評判。他把一切視為愛的推恩或愛的求助(T.12.I.3:1,2,3,4)。當我們的心靈與耶穌結合時,也會在這一慧見下看待個人或是國際社會的衝突。我們不會否認眼前的一切,但會給它們一個與世俗觀點迥異的詮釋。

      耶穌在論及疾病時曾說:「眼睛(肉眼)仍會看到萬物的差異性。可是,已經療癒的心靈再也不會與它認同了。雖然有些人看起來好像『病得比較嚴重』,肉眼也會照舊報導病情的發展。但已療癒的心靈會把它們全數歸類於同一個虛幻不實的範疇裡」(M-8.6:1-4)。只有當我們的心靈不再迷戀衝突和戰爭,不再借用它們而把分裂的罪咎投射於心外,我們的眼光才算療癒了。總之,我們曾幾何時曾經做過一個決定,參與集體之夢,演出這場外在的戰爭,鞏固小我的看法,把世界當成受害者與迫害者的競技場,但我們隨時隨地都可以向聖靈求助,幫助自己先認清小我賦予戰爭的目的,然後痛下決心不再助長內心的瘋狂之念。請記住,在認出對峙雙方的純潔無罪之前,我們需要先看清他們的瘋狂,並且領悟到,我們的神智也清明不到哪裡去!只要認同了小我,沒有人不陷入瘋狂的。

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    Q #37: This question is an edited combination of two separate questions that were submitted on the theme of choice and predetermination or destiny in A Course in Miracles:

    As I understand it, in this dream of separation my only real choice is which teacher I choose in every situation I find myself: the ego or the Holy Spirit. As for the dream itself, we are told that the script is already written. But I wonder, can I, as the dreamer of the dream, change the dream in terms of the specific events that unfold. Or can I change the dream only in terms of my perspective on the situation? In other words, is everything that I'm experiencing predestined when it comes to situations and relationships, etc.? That would mean that I'm walking through an old dream of separation, like watching an old movie, that my marriage could never have lasted longer than it did, I could never have had more than the number of children I have now, and the relationship I'm in now is already fully defined in terms of time, etc. As I'm given the opportunity to 'save time' by choosing the Holy Spirit as my teacher, it would mean only that I'm allowed to skip certain parts of the story. Is it like this?

    But it also seems that the Course encourages us not to exchange an unholy relationship for yet another unholy relationship with someone else, as we search for happiness we will never find outside of ourselves, but instead to make the relationship we are in a holy one. This seems to indicate that we do have choices in terms of the story, the people we're meeting, etc. So then there could be several possible versions of my lifetime. One might include two or more briefer marriages with different spouses while another might involve remaining in the same marriage for many years. But Jesus says that nothing is left to coincidence and that every meeting is planned. Or does the form simply not matter and do I just see shadows, projecting my own images on them? But then why is it that the script of my life, if it is already determined, seems to have such a significant effect on other people’s lives?

    Jesus also says that what we see is the judgment we first passed on ourselves, and outside of that there is no world. Does that mean that, for example, if there is a war between the United States and Iraq, I could have done something to stop it? Did it already happen and was it corrected, so that if I'm seeing a war instead of peace, does that mean that my mind still needs to be corrected because I am still choosing the wrong teacher? Or could I have done nothing to avoid the war and do I just choose which teacher with whom to view the events. And would I see nothing but innocence on both sides if I choose the Holy Spirit?

    A: To address completely all the questions and issues you’ve raised could take a book (and there is a book, A Vast Illusion: Time According to A Course in Miracles by Kenneth Wapnick, which you may find helpful to amplify some of the points that we’ll address briefly here).

    The Course does say that our only real choice is between the ego and Holy Spirit, the emphasis being on "real." But within the dream, there are nearly an infinite number -- although not infinite, only nearly infinite, because the ego can not make anything that is either infinite or eternal (T.4.I.11:7) -- of alternatives we can choose among at the level of form. But their underlying content is all the same -- sin, guilt and fear - and so the Course emphasizes that there is no real choice among alternatives that are really all the same. Meaningful choice can be made only on the level of content and so the only real choice is between the guilt and fear of the ego and the forgiveness and love of the Holy Spirit.So, yes, there are many different forms or sequences of events that our lives may take as a result of our seeming choices, but so long as we are choosing with the ego, believing that happiness can be found outside ourselves, nothing will really change, although our circumstances and relationships may alter significantly. By the way, the Course does not actually encourage us to remain physically in a relationship in order to make it holy -- it never advises us on the level of specifics or form. When it cautions us about "getting rid of your brother" (T.17.V.7:2), it is speaking of how we are perceiving our brother in our mind, including in particular all of the special fantasies we have associated with him that are no longer being fulfilled.

    Now the Course also says, as you remark, that the script is already written (W.pI.158.4:3) and that everything in time has already happened, so that our lives are nothing more than seeing "the journey from where it ended, looking back on it, imagining we make it once again; reviewing mentally what has gone by" (4:5). And while Jesus says that nothing happens by chance, he is clearly attributing the responsibility for choice for all the experiences of our lives to our own mind (T-21.II.3:1,2,3). But this does not mean that everything in our lives is predetermined, that the sequence of events is fixed. We are always choosing from an array of many possible events that have all already occurred, but the unique sequencing and the vast number of past events we’re choosing from, combined with our repressing any memory of any of them and our belief that time itself is both real and linear, add to the feeling that it is all new. And this is all part of the ego defense to mislead us into believing something new and meaningful is happening in our lives, reinforcing the foolish hope that somehow this time our ego choice in the world of form will have a better outcome.

    To understand the seeming effect of our lives on each other, we need to step back and look from outside the dream of the world, and return our attention to the mind where all choices are really being made. The nearly infinite number of possible events in time was written in one instant by the one (collective) mind, joined with the ego, before the fragmentary projection out into the world of separate individuals and lives seemed to happen. As Jesus explains, "time but lasted an instant in your mind, with no effect upon eternity. And so is all time past...The tiny tick of time in which the first mistake was made, and all of them with that one mistake" (T.26.3:3,4,5, italics added).

    Now my individual dream is separate and can not truly be shared with anyone else. But since all minds are joined, any decision that I make to interact as a body with you, or that you make to interact as a body with me, must always reflect an agreement we both have made together, at the level of mind outside of time and space, to replay certain events in time and space that have already happened. And this joint agreement must be kept buried in our unconscious if it is to be effective in supporting the ego’s purpose of separation and victimization.

    Jesus speaks of this joint decision, specifically in the context of our agreement to be hurt by each other, as "the secret vow that you have made with every brother that would walk apart.…Unstated and unheard in consciousness...it is a promise to another to be hurt by him, and to attack him in return.…so that [the body] will suffer pain. It is the obvious effect of what was made in secret, in agreement with another’s secret wish to be apart from you, as you would be apart from him. Unless you both agree that is your wish, it can have no effects" (T.28.VI.4:3,6,7; 5:1,2,3). This hidden joint agreement to seem to be affected by each other must be the case, for otherwise we would be the victim of each other’s decisions. While this joint agreement about form is true at a metaphysical level, at a practical level it is much more helpful to focus on the fact that in the world, as the physical self with which I identify, I am not able to control what others do, but I nevertheless always have a choice about how I will perceive what is happening in my life. I can decide which teacher I will invite in, and whether I will see my peace of mind as dependent only on my own choice -- as the Holy Spirit would teach -- or whether I choose to see others as having power to take away my peace of mind -- accepting the ego’s teaching that I can be victimized and therefore am not responsible for how I feel.

    As to whether or not a healed mind sees war and has any choice about it, it is apparent that Jesus recognizes the conflicts of our ego -- he spends a great deal of the Course pointing out the ego’s sick dynamics to us -- but that does not mean his mind is not healed. What is important is that he is not judging us as he uncovers our ego’s machinations. He sees everything as either an extension of love or a call for it (T.12.I.3:1,2,3,4). When we are joined with Jesus in our minds, we will see any conflict in the world, at either an individual or an international level, in that same light. We will not deny what our eyes see, but our interpretation will be different from the world’s interpretation. In the context of sickness, the Course observes that "the body’s eyes will continue to see differences. But the mind that has let itself be healed will no longer acknowledge them. There will be those who seem to be ‘sicker’ than others, and the body’s eyes will report their changed appearances as before. But the healed mind will put them all in one category; they are unreal" (M-8.6:1-4). And this healed perception can arise only after our mind has released its belief in the value of conflict and war as a means for projecting the guilt of separation outside of our own mind. We may have agreed to participate in a collective dream where an external war is played out in order to reinforce the ego’s perception of the world as one of victims and victimizers - but we can in any instant ask for help, first recognizing the ego’s purpose for war and then deciding we no longer wish to reinforce that insanity in our own mind. And before we would see innocence on all sides of the conflict, we would first see the insanity on all sides, and recognize it is the same insanity we share with everyone else when we are identified with the ego.



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